(Please bare with me, I am somewhat rambling on. It may not all sound well
thought out, but I had to say something)
I don't know if any of you follow the TV show Private Practice, but tonight's episode really got to me. It touched me as a mother and as a child. I don't want to give it all away because it is so much more emotional when you don't know what is going to happen in the episode, but boy did it make me miss my parents and my sister and make me want to hold on to my daughter so tight and to never let her go.
For some reason I had this rush of emotions come over me and I was just bawling on the couch. I am glad that I was all by myself because I probably looked like a blubbering fool.
After the show, I went in to the office where Brett was studying and I told him that we HAVE TO move back to Washington. There was no option. He of course looked at me with streaks of mascara smeared down my cheeks and asked what was wrong. I told him about the show and he, being the loving husband that he is, assured me that in time we would be going back, but it may take a few years. Not the answer that I wanted, but I guess it will have to do. I don't really have a say in the matter...yet.
To my parents- I miss you both so much. You mean the world to me and I love you. I wish that we were able to be up there 100% of the time so you can watch Chloe grow up into the wonderful woman that she is going to become with your own eyes and not through the computer. I want to be there for you through everything. Know what Dr.
appointments you are going to and if there was anything I could do to help. Trust me, when the first
opportunity comes around, we will be there.
To my sister- I love you and miss you so much it hurts at times. (
A lot to be exact) I wish that we lived closer to
each other so our kids could grow up together and be the best of friends. I just wish that I could see you more often, to be able to hug you and to go out for lunch and movie dates while mom and dad watch our kids.
I wish that the world worked like this:
You grow up, meet the boy (or girl) next door, fall in love, get married, find a well paying job in the town you live in, the old couple that live in the same neighborhood that you and your spouse grew up in, moved out and you are able to move into their place just in time for you to bring your family into the world. Both sets of grandparents will be retired and will be able to play with the
grand kids on a regular basis, cousins would be playing in the streets ( no cars of course ) and we would all be living happily ever after.
Oh how I wish. But reality is nothing close to that. We grow up, move away for various reasons, and every once in a while visit home. We do make the phone calls on a regular basis, but it never seems like it is enough.
To those who are able to see their family members whenever they choose to- enjoy it as much as you can, because one day you may not have this
luxury and you will beat yourself up for not taking advantage of the time you could have spent with your family.
Sorry for this emotional post, but the show really got to me tonight.
To everyone who means anything to me- I love you and thank you for being in my life.
OK it is now 2:05 and I MUST go to bed. I have responsibilities.
to watch this episode, go to:
www.abc.comclick on free episodes
click on Private Practice
choose episode 12 "Homeward bound" from season 2
Grab some tissues and enjoy it!